Emo relapse.

I keep floating down the river but the ocean never comes
Since the operation I heard you're breathing just for one
Now everything is imaginary, especially what you love
You left another message, said it's done
It's done

When I hear beautiful music it's always from another time
Old friends I never visit, I remember what they're like
Standing on a doorstep full of nervous butterflies
Waiting to be asked to come inside
Just come inside

But I keep going out
I can't sleep next to a stranger when I'm coming down
It's 8 a.m., my heart is beating too loud
Too loud
Don't be so amazing or I'll miss you too much
I felt something that I had never touched
Everything gets smaller now the further that I go
Towards the mouth and the reunion of the known and the unknown
Consider yourself lucky if you think of it as home
You can move mountains with your misery if you don't
If you don't

It comes to me in fragments, even those still split in two
Under the leaves of that old lime tree I stood examining the fruit
Some were ripe and some were rotten, I felt naseous with the truth
There will never be a time more opportune

So I just won't be late
The window closes, shocks roll over in a tidal wave
And all the color drains out of the frame
So pleased with a daydream that now living is no good
I took off my shoes and walked into the woods
I felt lost and found with every step I took

TrailerMania.

As anyone with eyes or ears knows, I love movies. I love them so much in fact I remember almost every bit of information I possibly can about every aspect of the production. I'm kind of an encyclopedia that way. So when I'm excited about a movie and expectations are big I usually go all out in my little immersions. This year that belongs to two films: Synecdoche NY and The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button.

I've read Synecdoche NY twice now. People will hate this flick, and that'll mostly be because it frustrates them. It really wants to be the masterpiece it ultimately is, but Charlie Kaufman's not interested in playing anything safe. Just when you get used to his first weird twist, he throws another, and another, and another. It's not as confusing as they're making it out to be, but it is kind of an overload at first. Characters loop back portraying other characters all the while floating in and out of character. It's extremely surreal but polarizing on paper. I am Caden Cotard. This is the story of my life. Especially if you take the meaning of the word 'synecdoche'' literally.

David Fincher is my favorite director so to see him go from Se7en and Fight Club to Zodiac and something like The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button given his roots working for Industrial Light & Magic. Panic Room wasn't the greatest movie, but it was cool and suspenseful mostly due to excellent directing. Fincher knows how to make a movie. He's OCD over details, and that's exactly what I love about him as a director.

So here for you, these are my two favorite trailers so far this year.

Synecdoche NY

The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button

Note: To really get the most of the Benjamin Button trailer, I cannot stress enough checking out the 480p version @ Apple Trailers.

mix02: Nathalie.

So in actuality the first mix is the second mix and the second the first, because this whole thing started after a few people coaxed me into putting my mixes online. Even though I think they suck. So to be a jerk and embarrass the three or four people who actually read and listen to this, behold your own embarrassment. Be grateful I didn't choose shocking or embarrassing pictures.

In all modesty, and to be absolutely resolutely fair the first mix Sad Song Street, which I kind of hope becomes a regular ongoing years and years kinda thing if only to have something to do -- to be fair, the first mix ever made for this was Nathalie's mix. Here it is if you haven't heard it cos I actually like this one quite a bit.

1. Death Cab For Cutie - You Can Do Better Than Me

2. Death Cab For Cutie - Grapevine Fires

3. Lightspeed Champion - Galaxy Of The Lost

4. Nico - These Days

5. Pink Floyd - Get Your Filthy Hands Off My Desert

6. Pink Floyd - The Fletcher Memorial Home

7. The Flaming Lips - Bad Days (Aurally Excited Version)

8. The Slits - Spend, Spend, Spend

9. Tori Amos - Hey Jupiter

10. Muse - Blackout

11. Michael Andrews - Gretchen Ross

12. Arcade Fire - Surf City Eastern City Bloc

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mix01: "Is Your Car Going To Be Okay?"

I fell in love with this new Antony & the Johnsons song, "Shake That Devil." It really pushes the entire Nina Simone comparison to new heights. It's everything Nina would've done, yknow, if she were a six-foot husky white man.

I tried to keep it pretty upbeat but I'm a sap, what can I say. All my mixes eventually veer into sad music territory. Thankfully, it's reserved for the last two or three tracks. Also, I like short mixes.

1. Antony and the Johnsons - Shake That Devil
2. The Ditty Bops - Walk Or Ride
3 Elvis Costello - (I Don't Want To Go To) Chelsea
4. Radiohead - Bangers & Mash
5. Blonde Redhead - Spring And Summer By Fall
6. Mountain Goats - Autoclave
7. Jon Brion - Barry States His Case
8. Richard Swift - Sad Song St.
9. Feist - Honey Honey
10. Bright Eyes - Smoke Without Fire

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